BUT GOD!!!!

I told you all that the time off brought a lot of ups and downs. However, there were blessings to be found through out all of it.

Imagine this…We are in the midst of closing on our first home. I have just sent over all the final paperwork to seal the deal. Our credit has been approved and everything is good. Now in the midst of trying to purchase a home you cannot create any new debt (Keep that in mind).

4:30 a.m. I awake up and get ready for work. 5:00 a.m. I am waking Keenan up to get him ready. We say our good mornings, brush our teeth, comb our hair, he eats breakfast and were off. Gotta get him strapped into the car seat. I do one final check to make sure we have everything. We enter the ramp to the highway. We say our prayer. “Dear God. Thank you for allowing me to see another day. May I be a blessing to someone else so that they see YOU through me. Amen” Now we need music. Tye Tribbett blares, “You are good. Hallelujah, you are good!”

At that moment I lost total control of everything….literally.  I can only describe what it felt like. But it felt like the car slipped out of the gear and slid. I then gained control for about 2 seconds and then it slipped again and this time I did not gain control. The car just started pulling me to the right and no matter how hard I tried to pull back to the left I could not do it. Some people asked me if it felt as if the steering column went out. Nope. I was successfully turning the wheel, all the while the car was successfully going the opposite direction. Over three lanes of traffic we flew. Eventually we crashed into a construction barrier at which point the car spun and left us barricaded between the construction barrier and the 2nd lane of traffic. We are stuck facing on coming traffic in the slow lane and there is literally nothing I can do but sit and wait.

I call 911 and I go through the motions of where I am and what just happened. Only one car stops and asks us if we need help as we wait for 15 minutes before help comes. At that moment in time I realized….BUT GOD……! There was really nothing else I could say. We crossed over three lanes of traffic. I didn’t hit anyone else and no one hit us. The construction barrier was actually a blessing because the only other place I had to go was huge concrete wall on the side of the highway which would have caused way more damage. I realized that had someone actually hit us they would have hit my Keenan’s side of the car. I walked away with just a few scratches and my child was completely unharmed. He wasn’t even shaken. He simply asked, “You okay mommy? Why you stop?” The last question brought laughter in the midst of the storm. Actually I should not even say storm. I was able to walk away. I went to bible study that night. I drove to get my child from day care that night. I was slightly worried about whether or not this would affect the house but not too much.

I always say I understand that some of you may not be believers. Believer or not, where do you turn when there is no where else to turn? Who do you call on when you have lost total control of life? If you have not tried him….please give HIM a try. I’m not sure what you should expect because each persons situation is different. Maybe you want him to be a miracle worker and today he just wants to be a peace maker for you. Doesn’t mean he can’t perform them because in my situation he worked a miracle and placed protection all around me. He opened my eyes to the fact that life is short and tomorrow is not promised. I am doing everything I can now to live and enjoy what life brings. If you thought I was thankful for my child before I am more grateful now. I could have walked away pissed my car was messed up, mad that it might jeopardize the house, and pissed that about the scars it left (It looks like someone choked the mess out of me on one side of my neck) However, I walked away more grateful than ever. I don’t believe that I would have attested the house to myself but If I was going to…..the accident helped me to remember to let the world know God gave me that house, HE gave me life, HE gave me my child and at the snap of a finger it could all be gone.  It reminded me to focus on the little small moments that we create. I talked about this in a previous post.

Today I just dare you to focus on the all the good things in your life. Take time to create memories that can be cherished. Recognize that life really is short. Lastly, If you have not tried HIM please do. He may not work for you the same way he worked for me but we are not the same person and I can attest he will work and when he does remember, BUT GOD…!